2003-08-01 at 9:23 p.m.
kill me, i want to die.
i want to kill myself.no lie. working 18-20 hours a day out to sea, tv not working, sweating. micromanaging. i feel sick to my stomagh (sp?). i can't stand this. the stupidity of the people i work with. FUCK DEAR FUCKING FUCK!
nej's cd's helped very greatly, but i dont think enough. at least we have internet out to sea this time.not keeping me sane enough. ill be out here for another 7 or 8 days and then we have to work some more.
KILL ME , OR I WILL DO IT SOON ENOUGH.